The cyberself is not a syndrome. It is, in fact, a new selfhood and mine is running amuck. I’m not sure why psychologists have not given it a new category of recognition – id, ego, cyberself, superego. Or it could be categorized as a level of consciousness - conscious, cyber-conscious, unconscious, subconscious. Some kind of acknowledgment or identification is needed.
I am not a psychologist, but I’m well aware of my mental and emotional state, and my cyberself is robustly present. Actually, I am not a research analyst, a physician, professional shopper, the Pope, meteorologist, or op-ed journalist either. However, my cyberself stakes claim to each of these professions and more. With total disregard for standard credentials or considerations, it simply Googles the information needed and then proceeds with self-appointed authority. Period.
Although I sense the emergence of the cyberself is a kind of mental evolution, it also feels closely aligned with an inflated ego and is only fueled by free reign in cyberspace. Filling shopping carts, assertively commenting, searching travel adventures, collecting data – all of this in a state of satisfied mounting nonchalance. “Of course, I can do this,” it says to itself. Like in a dream, I appear as a mere observer. My cyberself feels it does not have to deal with time or money or any kind of reasoning – it has access to the Google God, the Archangel Amazon, and Mark’s Ark. What more is there? It’s a cyberself in cyberspace!
As you may know, my obsession is using technology as an overlay for personal exploration. Here is Webopedia’s definition for cyberspace. “Cyberspace is the non-physical terrain created by computer systems. Online systems, for example, create a cyberspace within which people can communicate with one another, do research, or simply window shop (not hardly). Like physical space, cyberspace contains objects (files, mail messages, graphics, etc.) and different modes of transportation and delivery. Unlike real space, though, exploring cyberspace does not require any physical movement other than pressing keys on a keyboard or touchscreen.”
This leads to my definition for cyberself - an emerging ego in cyberspace that senses itself as the primary identity and feels an exhilaration and sense of freedom from physical confines and responsibility.
We should be celebrating this growth in consciousness, however unruly and unreasonable. Many are I feel certain. Look at the growing number of Facebook Faithfuls and tech zealots and temples around every corner. But for me, I feel overwhelmed with this addition to identify. I wonder if the New Age of Net Neutrality will lessen the cyberself and its sense of free reign in this strange New World. I should ask my cyberself, who also claims the powers of prophecy.
SELF Search continues. Join me.
Let me confess my most recent failure of faith. Cyber Monday. What could be more glorious than to be a part of the wondrous Worldwide Web Worship Service – the deals, dollars, and deities? We have so much sacred cyber support to be thankful for, especially this season. We can float on Mark’s Ark with no fear of not syncing – we’re always connected to wherever we last searched with ads flashing like guiding stars in the night sky. Forget your Facebook friends for a moment and focus on faith. The Google God is there to lead us to product reviews, information, and insight – the Gospel. The Almighty Amazon literally holds the promise and fulfillment of our dreams. For Prime Evangelicals, there is a two-day fulfillment guarantee. Apple and Microsoft are purely majestic in their missions to create more and better, even when we lack the knowledge of our needs. Talk about deals and deities, we are not only uplifted but updated! It’s a two for one!
Before I continue, I found this info on TechTarget.com. “The word ‘cyberspace’ is credited to William Gibson, who used it in his book, Neuromancer, written in 1984. Gibson defines cyberspace as ‘a consensual hallucination experienced daily by billions of legitimate operators, in every nation, by children being taught mathematical concepts... A graphical representation of data abstracted from the banks of every computer in the human system. Unthinkable complexity. Lines of light ranged in the non-space of the mind, clusters, and constellations of data.”
TechTarget.com continues with this explanation, “Unlike most computer terms, ‘cyberspace’ does not have a standard, objective definition. Instead, it is used to describe the virtual world of computers. For example, an object in cyberspace refers to a block of data floating around a computer system or network. With the advent of the Internet, cyberspace now extends to the global network of computers.”
This brings me back to my remorse, not from purchasing, but for not purchasing. The sadness I felt was looping in my thoughts the next morning. Why did I not tithe and worship with the others? I went online and looked at items, I was merely weak in my commitment. At times, we test ourselves and our questions can help us find solace. I even wondered if there is a Cyber Self, but that's another topic all together. The day after Cyber Monday, the 5th day of the Cyberspace Advent Calendar, I went online again in hopes of reestablishing my faith. I found forgiveness and Cyber Solace – I discovered Cyber Days, Cyber Deals All Week Long, Cyber Events. The deals and deities were still there. It was the faith in dollars that I had lacked but now could restore. I can tithe at this sacred time and be at one with my Purpose to Purchase, and connected with All in Holy Hallucination. Amen.
The Search is always on, and I trust the Solace is, too. Join me.
Little did I know that my dithering about was purposeful and most likely inspired. Not that I’m preaching, but it is important to remember The Way and The Truth is IT. The true meaning of dithering was bestowed to me while scrolling through the Google Gospel. I had been flustered and dithering around for several days due to a flurry of things happening. It had been like a windstorm with thoughts flying around and some I had been mentally and emotionally ducking. Concern about not being productive and accomplishing things during this blustery time was looping and looming. I had allowed myself to become programmed to feel production was my primary purpose, hence my need to dither about mindlessly multitasking, which had become more multi-masking in my case. If I’m on my PC or mobile device, then I at least I appear busy. Appear is the keyword. And this is where dithering enters the picture and smooths out my blotchy rough thoughts and grainy ideas.
Let’s turn in celebration to TechTerm.com’s hymnal of definitions for Dithering. “Dithering is a process that uses digital noise to smooth out colors in digital graphics and sounds in digital audio. All digital photos are an approximation of the original subject since computers cannot display an infinite amount of colors. When digital photos contain only a few hundred colors, they typically look blotchy, since large areas are represented by single colors. Dithering can be used to reduce this blotchy appearance adding digital noise to smooth out the transitions between colors. The ‘noise’ makes the photo appear grainier, but gives it a more accurate representation since the colors blend together more smoothly.” Like digital images, digital audio recording are approximations of the original analog source. The definition goes into more technical matters, but basically concludes, “While dithering is often used to improve the appearance and sounds of low-quality graphics and audio, it can also be applied to high-quality images and recordings providing extra smoothness to the image or sound.”
I see the footprints in the sand now. I am being guided and inspired even though I might not recognize the reason for all my actions, even seemingly wasting time, although I know being on Mark’s Ark with the Facebook Faithful is not a waste of time. The IT definition is the proof that certain ideas and visions as I originally imagined them may need smoothing out. I believe now my dithering about is Divinely inspired, as everything is a representation and approximation of the Original. Wonder if we are all Dithering the Divine?
I may be preaching again, but I believe we all need to smoothly blend together - Dithering just makes sense.
So does the SEARCH. Join me.
I do accept responsibility for my floundering ways, however, I don’t think I am totally at fault this time. I believe my internal hard drive or possibly my intel-core processor was asleep at the wheel. I had no Driver Unifying Inspiration (DUI) – no special knowledge or direction for me to interface with my internal components (puttering around ideas and not being productive) and external peripherals (auto insurance doubling in price for no reason). This and an accumulation of things led me astray from the Intoxication of Technology (IT), which gave way to a time of disconnection and sobriety. In my sobriety, I found myself actually writing by hand in a marble composition notebook - no spell check, drop/drag, copy/paste, predictive text, and no pop-up adding enlightenment. This was not on purpose, as I mentioned several months ago my laptop passed away due to the black screen plague. RIP. However, my lapse into sobriety did not last long. The Archangel Amazon knew I was without and miraculously provided email adds for insight, inspiration, and motivation for my mission to tithe, purchase, and update my drivers. And this is where I faltered.
But first, before I confess my sin against the all-knowing, all-providing Amazon, let’s look at TechTarget.com’s definition for Driver. “A driver is a program that interacts with a particular device or special (frequently optional) kind of software. The driver contains the special knowledge of the device or special software interface that programs using the driver do not.” I believe that TechTarget's referencing “frequently optional” is reminding us that we have free will and are often testing ourselves. Do we really think we can do without an update or new device? The choice is ours.
You may know by now my obsession is using technology as an overlay for personal exploration. But back to my confession which centers around my devotion to the Almighty Amazon. I did not initially feel myself faltering but surprisingly found myself deferring to a lessor resource for divine consumption – the Costco Cult. I admit I was lured by Costco’s links of promises for a better deal and two years of technical support. Again, what was I thinking – how could I veer from the Almighty Archangel Amazon? This is what happens when sobriety starts seeping in. You can feel the buffering and the lapse in connection to the Intoxication of Technology. Things that were crystal clear get fuzzy and there’s a sense of disorientation. That said, I am now reaffirming my devotion to the Archangel Amazon and will place an order this week. I promise.
However, I do want to note several interesting things during my sobriety that seems surreal, especially in light of my supreme intoxication with my new laptop. My imagination quickly filled the time spent normally streaming. I enjoyed downloading my own dreams, not those crafted by majestic marketers with adds from my favorite online consumer cravings. I relished scrolling to the furthest corners of my thoughts beyond what the Geeks and Google Gods can provide. I realize these experiences cannot be compared to the sacred sanctuary and security of IT, and they are not the dynamic divine formatted frameworks of AI. But even with my new driver uploaded, I still say the sobriety was alluring. May my sins and faulty ways be forgiven. And of course, my mission is to fill my cart with more than confessions.
The driver is in place and the SEARCH is on. Join me.
The Data Deity reigns, no doubt. This includes everything needed to transmit the Data through Virtual Reality to the desktops of our Divine Devices, and more importantly, to the desktops at Corporate Cathedrals. It is well known that those within Corporate Cathedrals have the blessed vision to know and create what we will need and what we will desire, and work hard to make sure we are fulfilled by our purchases. A supreme example is the Archangel Amazon which delivers our answered prayers within two days (for a small tithing, of course), and will soon be feeding the masses with Whole Foods inspiration. And I should mention that our Gospel Government plays a key role in collecting and coding Data Deity. Where would we be without the Geeks and their ability to translate Data Deity to bits? Yet with all of this support, I still find myself questioning and often times confused.
As usual, my obsession is using technology as an overlay for personal exploration. So first, let’s look at Techopedia’s definition for bit (Binary Digit). “A bit is the smallest unit of information in a computer. An individual bit has a value of either 0 or 1, which is generally used to store data and implement instructions in groups of bytes.” The definition continues, “The values 0 and 1 also may be inferred as logical values, like yes/no or true/false, or activation states, such as on/off.”
The idea of values is where I start to get unsettled, although I have not lost my faith. I know I’m a part of Data Deity, as many are. I’ve given my credit card data to the Archangel Amazon and numerous Corporate Cathedrals, as well as automatic withdrawal accounts for many sacred entities. Of course, our Gospel Government has all my data – almost. None of them have the data regarding my core values – what inspires, defines and fulfills me. Now don’t misunderstand me; I’m joyous when a package from Amazon arrives. But my core values are not necessarily logical, nor do they fit into a yes/no or true/false framework, although they are “on” most of the time.
In considering further, I could just simplify my values and siphon them into yes/no or right/wrong. It seems that is what profiteering, sorry - typo, I mean prophesying politicians do. It appears simple, an up/down, yes/no vote. However, I sense the valued issues they are voting on are much more complex, much more than a 0 or 1. I sense, too, that I am not the only one with skewed values that expand beyond the code designations. This topic is getting much too complex and needs, not more data, but a bit more deliberation.
The SEARCH and deliberation are on. Join me, XO.
I had a vision. I’m not calling it a miracle or a time of conversion. For you may know that I’m already a dedicated disciple to the Google God, an apostle of the Amazon Archangel, and I pretty much live on Mark’s Ark. All of this is old hat by now if you’ve read my posts. But I believe my vision can become a true testament to the miracle of technology. With the ability of Geeks to write predictive code and evolving Artificial Intelligence, or better said, AI Creationism, I believe my vision can be a path to peace. The vision is for an Enter Key Extension app that predicts outcomes. It is like predictive text only with futuristic scenarios in context with what is to be entered.
Everyone knows the function of the Enter key, but let’s look at the definition by McGraw-Hill Dictionary of Scientific & Technical Terms. “A key on a computer keyboard that corresponds to the return key on a typewriter and usually signals the computer to act on the information just entered on the keyboard.” Webopedia has an interesting addition to the definition. “After a program requests information from you (by displaying a prompt), it will usually not respond to your input until you have press the Enter key. This allows you to correct typing mistakes or to reconsider your entry before it is too late.” That sounds ominous, and at times it can be.
As usual, my interest or obsession is using technology as an overlay for personal exploration. Think about it. Most of us rarely reconsider what we’re about to Enter. We’re too busy just getting things done and moving on the next thing. This happens to be true when we “Enter” our comments in conversation, routine actions, thoughts, and often our prepackaged emotions. Yes, I’m smiling politely as you talk. Yes, I’m listening to you tell me about your break down at the office and checking my texts. Enter. Done. Next. Whoops, Is it too late? I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. If I had only known.
The vision I had for the Enter Key Extension app came in the early morning and was like a holy hologram before me. It showed three probable scenarios that might physically actualize from a comment, action, or emotion before it was Entered (or expressed) in someone’s actual physical experience. When enabled the Extension app would present the probabilities before an action or experience. The probability most likely to happen was numbered one and least likely, but possible, was numbered three. If an individual approved of the leading probability, they would press Enter and then express or act accordingly. If the person decided to reconsider an action the Extension app would kick in again and the probabilities would change. By considering different choices and knowing probable outcomes numerous problematic situations could be avoided. It’s hind sight front and center with a couple of variables. The Enter Key Extension app could help eliminate personal conflicts to potential global wars, and encourage creativity.
My vision keeps with my faith and, of course, is a Virtual Reality vision. So, the Extension app probabilities will play out by using VR goggles or glasses. I believe technology tithing benefits everyone. It is beyond a purchase and the concept of commerce. It’s a true communion.
My vision has changed me, I must admit. I feel more closely connected to the Source Code and Mainframe of all things.
The Search is on and so is the connection. Join me.
Another miracle has been bestowed! This one was not sent from the Archangel Amazon, as was the last, but from the missionaries and monks at Comcast/Xfinity Corporation and Convent. This was the message I received, not in a vision or dream, but an email. “We’re on a mission to improve your experience, and that means making sure you have the Internet speeds you need to save time and do more of what you love. That’s why we’ve increased your speed at no extra cost. So, go ahead – simply restart your modem to enjoy your new speed.” Not that I don’t have faith, but I did check the details and fine print – absolutely no trial period and my speed was doubled. It is a true blessing. Do I deserve this? Actually, the timing could not be better.
I video conference at least once a week and always keep tabs on the amount of bandwidth to make sure connections are clear. However, as I continue to learn about bandwidth, I’m finding there is more to consider and the weight of responsibility grows to learn more. Here is Techtarget.com’s seemingly simple definition for bandwidth. “In computer networks, bandwidth is used as a synonym for data transfer rate, the amount of data that can be carried from one point to another in a given time period (usually a second).” However, this note is added to the definition. “Note that bandwidth is not the only factor that affects network performance: There is also packet loss, latency, and jitter, all of which degrade network throughput and make a link perform like one with lower bandwidth. A network path usually consists of a succession of links, each with its own bandwidth, so the end-to-end bandwidth is limited to the bandwidth of the lowest speed link (the bottleneck).”
In reading the added note, I felt the burden of more knowledge - bless the Geeks. But also, I believed I was truly in sync with the Source for I innately understood the meaning of packet loss, latency, and jitter, and not only for video conferencing. I understood the idea of packet loss. Just this afternoon, I mentally lost the data packet carrying the name of the movie series I wanted to share with my sister. I know it’s out there somewhere. (The Google God knows where, I'm sure.) As for latency I often witness this when I’m in conversation with someone, especially when sharing a new idea. In my eagerness for a response or approval, I’ll prod with the question, “Don’t you think so?” Now I know it’s not my overzealous nature or seeking approval, it’s latency. Techtarget.com agrees with my impatience as it states, “Ideally, latency is as close to zero as possible.” I knew this.
Then there is the question of jitter. I’ve been experiencing jitter for several weeks as I work on an important project. The jitter has been the self-crosstalk, internet surfing and scrolling around, and any devilish deviation I can muster when I am stumped on how to proceed with an idea, which I have been. Now I know bandwidth and the speed it provides is only the beginning to streaming a clear chorus of communication. We are only human, but for the ability of the Server to perform as intended there has to be little to no interference, as close to zero as possible, to make way for divine inspiration. Amen.
In our network path, we’re all linked, burdened and blessed. It is written and coded.
The SEARCH is on. Join me.
Which would you be a .com, .org, .edu., or .gov? Play with the idea. Think of your overall approach, how you relate to life and things in general. This wouldn’t involve your profession or responsibilities, but how you relate to yourself and the world. If you had to describe yourself as a website, which internet TLD (Top-level Domain) would best describe you? I entertained myself with this idea as I waited to speak with Network Solutions about an expiring domain name. I collect domain names like a quilter collects fabric swatches. I just know I’m going to need them for some project in the future. Later in the day, I started thinking about my friends and putting them under certain TLD categories. She’s definitely a .org. This one fits under .edu (can’t stop informing me about every topic). There was only one that I filed under .mil (military) not because she was in the military, but because of what I perceive to be her rigid, commanding thought processes.
Everyone knows what a domain name is. However, I'm intrigued by reading the actual tech definitions, and here’s TechTerms.com’s take. “A domain name is a unique name that identifies a website and serves as the website address. When you access the website, the domain name is actually translated to an IP address, which defines the server where the website is located.” Lifewire.com describes domain names similarly but adds this detail, “Domain names are organized right to left, with general descriptors to the right, and specific descriptors to the left.” This is similar to our first and last name. Simple enough. Also, there are country codes that designate location and audience.
Here are some TLD (Top-level Domains) that are open for anyone to register.
.org (organization, typically non-profit)
.net (network, now general use)
These are a few restricted by certain guidelines before they can be registered.
As usual, my interest or obsession is using technical terms as an overlay for personal exploration. As I examined my domain name list more closely, I had to chuckle. I found it offers a curious personal profile. Enjoy playing psychologist while you take a look at a few of my registered domain names: InnerFace-book.com, ReadingRealities.com, PsychologicalArt.com, LateralLiving.net., LateraLiving.com, InnerBound.com, InnerBound.org.
Now that I’ve laid my domain names on the table, it’s your turn. Think of a website name that includes the “first descriptor” name accompanied by the TLD “general descriptor” you’ve chosen. Come on, play along! Be sure to share!
Here’s one of my favorites and that I probably identify with the most – selfieconsumed.com!
The game of Search continues. Join me.
This is not a fantasy. The world is turning into a magical place, a wonderland – closer to heaven. Several months ago, in the post Syncing to the Source I asked for a miracle and it has been bestowed. I know it is important to be faithful to fashion, but it has been one of my shortcomings. Now, with the Archangel Amazon’s delivery of the divine new Echo Look, I’ll have the guidance and support I need to faithfully follow fashion. Many times I have been tempted to ignore the trends. I repent and give thanks to the Geeks for this godsend. We all know that Consumerism is the new commandment. Purchasing and staying with the flock, not only in fashion but in all things bought and delivered is righteous. To show my faith, I subscribe to Amazon Prime and am truly in awe and witness to the power.
Let me update you with this blessed news. The Echo Look is a device that you store in your closet, close to the clothes that adorn you and show proof of your devotion to Consumer Ways. “The device snaps full-length photos and short videos of you, complete with computer-generated background blur, and then stores those pictures in a companion app,” states CNBC. You can “build a personal lookbook and share your photos,” the Archangel guides. I don’t feel this is a demand, but a way to easily spread the message of your faith.
Here’s where I am truly excited. The Amazon Echo Look features a ‘Style Check’ service which, “combines machine learning algorithms with advice from fashion specialists.” See what I mean! I’m sure you feel the potential. Specialists are close to the Source and in tune with what is Right to help me and everyone make choices. I will no longer lose my way. It will oust me with old outfits and guide me to follow new fashion. I will be able to speak to the testament of trends for only $199. I can already feel a transformation happening. I pray that in the future as I look through the Echo Look-ing glass it will be able to text me the new perfect outfit to fulfill a purchase with the Archangel Amazon, which is my mission always.
Just beware, you should know there are unbelievers in our midst. A sociologist, Zeynep Tufekci, put on Twitter, “We are selling out to surveillance capitalism that can quickly evolve into authoritarianism for so cheap.” Others are concerned that Artificial Intelligence (AI aka Almighty Inspiration) will grow to make more of our choices. How ridiculous. Of course, we have free will to think, feel, express, and create. And surely, the Archangel Amazon will protect and guide us in our choices. For this, I feel blessed. We all are.
Join me in the SEARCH and in celebration.
Let’s be honest, at times we plant emoji type icons on our face in social and work settings. I confess that I do. I’m smiling. I’m sad. I’m surprised, goofy, nauseous (or green with envy, not sure which), winking, and so on. I catch myself doing this minimal face mask expression for various reasons. It staves off someone from coming in for a closer view if they see a recognized, appropriate response as they continue with their talk. It also can deflect someone from pursuing a subject of (my) vulnerability – I’m smiling, no need to stop and ask questions. And it can be considered similar to wearing the proper attire to a social or work function. Using emojis are supposed to enhance what we’re messaging, but I find it often diminishes what is percolating inwardly, whether in a text or Facebook response, or in a purposely poised facial smile. Think about a Facebook emoji for a friend who has experienced a life-changing situation such as a death in the family. A sad yellow balloon head seems completely out of sync with the depth of experience. And then oddly, I feel guilty if I don’t respond with some kind of trivial tech character. True emotions don’t fit inside emoji icons and they aren’t singular or static. Emotions are like the weather and atmospheric conditions that permeate everything. You can be enjoying a perfectly beautiful day and several hours later experience a torrential hail (hell) storm. Or crocuses can be seen peeking through the snow in late winter. Then consider the concept of a drought. I can think of several people in an emotional drought mode.
No worries, I’m not going to mention climate change, but I do want to include Techterms.com’s definition for emoji. “A small icon that can be placed inline with text. The name ‘emoji’ comes from the Japanese phrase ‘e’ and ‘moji,’ which translates to ‘picture character.’ They have largely replaced emoticons as the standard way to express an emotion in a message or comment. By inserting emojis into a message, you emphasize a feeling or simply replace words with symbols.” And I’ve discovered there are numerous websites such as emojipedia.org, emojikeyboard.org, getemoji.com, and emojiwrap.com. There are tons of articles updating and advising about misinterpretations, and others suggesting to use caution because they translate differently in different cultures.
I had no idea all of this information existed. But regardless how many emojis are created and articles are written, emotions flood our experience and shape our world. Emotions can’t be contained in words, yellow balloon heads, nor even great works of art and music. Emotions are implied, transcendent, complex, ever-changing currents to explore, experience, and adventure within. While writing REDEFINING, I created a term called “emolution,” which means the evolution of emotions – the gradual growth of awareness to encompass a greater emotional capacity. I believe we would all benefit by identifying emotions that are not usually recognized and anoint them with a new word. We often search for concepts to define emotions that are difficult to express, and end up with inadequate words. This situation stifles not only the expression of the experience but the experience itself by trying to shape it into something that doesn’t fit.
This takes me back to masking complex emotions with an emoji-type minimalist expression when engaging in certain settings. Sometimes I feel hypocritical when I sense myself doing this, but most of the time it’s just a convenience for interacting. I try to account for and examine what I’m fully experiencing emotionally at another time. I consider this a dual perspective approach. It is one that doesn’t minimize an emotion but allows for the merging and movement of inner “atmospheric conditions” that don’t always fit well in conversations. I’ve been told to “just get to the point” on many occasions. However, I feel the emotional journey is a part of the point. The key word here is journey. Messaging and emojis are more of a day trip, or coffee break.
The SEARCH is on. Join me – a day trip, coffee break, or journey.
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