I'm tired. I'm tired and frazzled with all the fray in the news and began writing a piece entitled, Defragging Democracy. Not being politically motivated, my thoughts were driven by the idea to clean up the system and have it perform more efficiently and effectively. Yes, I know every politician says the same thing. However, if our PCs or laptops weren't functioning properly we would not hesitate a second to run a scan to check for spam, virus, malware, or Trojan horse. We would do what was needed without question to secure our device, bank account, and our identity.
In researching the tech terms, I learned that defragmentation is basically outdated unless you're using an old PC or laptop. Defragmentation is now referred to as Optimization. The term didn't simply change, the computing hardware did. Updated high-performance PCs, laptops, and servers now use SSD (solid-state drive), rather than an HDD (hard disk drive).
Please bear with me through all the tech jargon - I feel this is vital to our nation, and of course to my obsession with tech terms as an overlay for personal exploration. Here's TechTarget.com's explanation for SSD. "An SSD (solid-state drive) is a type of nonvolatile (thank goodness) storage media that stores persistent data (this would help) on solid-state flash memory. The architectural configuration of the SSD controller is optimized to deliver high read and write performance for both sequential and random data requests." (Our objective, right?) "Unlike a hard disk drive (HHD), an SSD has no moving parts to break or spin up or down and be subject to mechanical failure." (We're there.) "The SSD is also quieter and consumes less power than its disk counterpart." (This is a big plus. And the next feature is impressive). "The SSD controller software includes predictive analytics that alert a user in advance of a potential drive failure."
Enough said. It's not rocket science, (although I was lost in a maze of tech articles), just common sense. We merely need to upgrade and optimize our government to an SSD Democracy. It'll be quieter, less volatile, have persistent data, be able to deal with random issues, know future outcomes, use less energy, and have no need to spin. Problem solved. I'm voting for an SSD Democracy upgrade. And I need an SSD Self upgrade.
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Yep, that's my new Subscriber Identification Module. I've decided to embrace what I feel others are thinking, which is that I am a pain in the backside. Lately, I've given myself latitude to express what I'm genuinely feeling - a mental and emotional freedom. My intention is not to be rude nor to make anyone uncomfortable, but to be able to freely breathe my thoughts and ride the current of my emotions. I find it diminishing and draining to pre-think and choreograph my conversations. I will only jump so high in volume as I speak, so as not to offend you or the neighbors or bystanders. I will venture only to the edge of an idea in case it disturbs your boundaries and beliefs and your fear of falling. My emotions will remain ankle-deep - no tossing, turning or water up your nose. And as for my aspirations and dreams, rest assured the ones I mention will fit standard template designs and colors.
This is what I've been experiencing when connecting with my network. With my Verizon network, I've been dropping calls and fading in and out of connectivity - similar, it seems. I visited the Verizon store the other day regarding these tech issues. They suggested a new SIM card for my new phone. You may know, I'm fascinated (obsessed) by computer terminology and use it as an overlay for personal exploration. And you may know, also, that I have a tendency to impose my obsession in conversations, which can be a pain for others. Here's Techopedia.com's definition for SIM card. "SIM stands for subscriber identity module. It's a removable smart card inside a cell phone that stores data unique to the user, as an identification number, passwords, phone numbers, and messages, which allows the user to make receive calls and access cellular data."
After reading far too much tech information, simply stated, a SIM card is your identity placed inside a cell phone. It is an essential piece in the ever-growing digital communication process. That said, I believe the new addition to my identity is essential, too, however disruptive it might be. Expressing a genuine perception to another and ourselves, I feel is a valued gift. What is more intimate and meaningful than our perspective, our perception, our view of the world? And as the tech definition states, every user has their unique data.
A new SIM card carrying a newly defined free-forming pain the backside identity - sounds like an adventure to me!
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It's incredible how together we can be in our contortions. Every movement, emotion, and expression are in harmony - nothing out of alignment. This synchronized streaming is often performed with others without thinking. We smile, they smile. A grimace promotes an empathetic grimace. We ride along our conversations, thoughts, and emotions at a safe speed. But underneath the surface there can be momentum building, collapsing, clashing. It's the theory of personal relativity in action. I presented a perfect example of this theory several days ago. I was in sync with every twisted thought and excuse I had. I was flawlessly frustrated.
As you may know, I'm fascinated (obsessed) by computer terminology and use it as an overlay for personal exploration. Soundsupport.biz offers this definition and explanation for streaming. "Streaming is transmitting a continuous flow of audio and/or video data while earlier parts are being used. The term refers to the delivery method of the data rather than the data. Streamed data is not stored on you computer. The data is being continuously sent to your computer and your computer displays earlier parts while subsequent parts are being received. Once the earlier parts have been displayed, they are typically discarded."
Whew! The last sentence is a good thing. I definitely don't want what I was streaming in frustration to be installed on my hard drive. This thought initiated a further SEARCH - what is being streamed and what is being actually downloaded regarding my thoughts and beliefs. I mentally scuffed and stomped around, but eventually found that emotions were key in the search, and only honesty can provide answers - and inspiration. Interestingly, it was the inspiration that I was missing as I worked on a creative project that began my disruptive day. Once I uncovered the real cause of my frustration everything came into alignment - synchronized streaming, once again. Although this time, I downloaded it.
The SEARCH led me to wonder, too, about the synchronized streaming of honesty. Think about it. False politeness would be archived. Time and money would be saved in numerous ways considering the meetings and summits arranged with little expectation for advancement. Besides the world stage, think of the energy spent on personal justifications and excuses, which already has me with depleted bandwidth for the month.
As always, the SEARCH is on. Join me.
Waiting patiently with buffered comments is not my idea of a conversation. I tend to include (intrude) my thoughts while others are expressing theirs - I interrupt. I see it as being engaged, listening, responding - a dynamic conversation. I liken it to reading online articles. I'll often take my cursor and follow the hyperlinks adding to and rounding out the topic. Free-forming, real-time dialogue is invigorating, though not necessarily considered polite. A conversation cursor could solve the problem. And it would be a perfect new app for augmented reality glasses.
As you probably know, I use tech terms as an overlay for personal experience. It's fun, and a slightly different angle often can offer a better understanding to a situation. Here's TechTerm.com's definition for cursor. "The cursor on your screen can indicate two things: 1) where your mouse pointer is, or 2) where the next character typed will be entered in a line text." I'm interrupting the definition to include my idea. As I envision a Cursor for Conversations, when someone wants to add to the conversation, their thoughts will automatically be typed out on everyone's glasses screen. The thoughts will be interjected by the placement of your cursor. The conversation will not be interrupted, and all expressions are included. Perfect. It'll encourage dynamic, free-flowing conversations.
Back to the cursor definition. "The mouse cursor is most often an arrow that you can use to point to different objects on your screen. When the cursor is over an object, you can click or double-click the mouse button to perform an action on that object (such as opening a program)." I'm going to interrupt again. I'd like to be able to open more than a program with this new app. Opening a mind would be real progress regarding many conversations I've had lately.
Back to the definition. "The mouse cursor can change into other images, such as a small hand (when you roll over a link in a Web page), or an hourglass (when Windows is "thinking" so hard, it won't let you click on anything)." Another thought - knowing someone is thinking about what you're saying is a good thing. To software developers out there - this will be a valuable feature to include.
Definition continued. "The text cursor is typically a straight vertical line or I-shaped object that flashes in a line of text." Excuse me, but I know that. "Typically, when you are typing a paper, the cursor will be at the end of the line, because you are adding new text to the uncharted white area. of the page." I especially like the idea of white space and conversations being uncharted.
Definition. "However, if you want to insert a word or erase somewhere else in a line of text, you can use the mouse cursor to click the position where you would like to insert the text." Erasing some of the things I say would be a good thing. Take note app developers.
In closing, "In most word processing programs, once you start typing, the text cursor continues to flash, but the mouse point disappears until you move the mouse again. This is avoid, "cursor Confusion," since most people can't type and click on things at the same time." I agree, avoiding confusion is always a good thing.
Who would have guessed a definition for cursor would be so involved and detailed? My friends would probably say to me, "Just get to the point," Maybe the Cursor for Conversations app should include a quick scroll through to the end. No, that won't work, conversations are best uncharted.
Know I'm open for conversations with lots of white space and interruptions.
As always, the SEARCH is on. Join me.
When you have a neighbor tell you to turn off your output, there’s a good indication you have a problem. Recently a fellow hiker delivered this message in caps to my face, not a text. This was not her exact wording, but it was how I translated the message using tech terms as an overlay for personal experience (it’s my obsession). She apparently felt my streaming whitewater thoughts were disruptive, which was not my input, nor my intended output. This, along with some continuing buffering and bloatware in the system, caused me to realize that I wasn’t reaching optimal performance. I assumed there must be an output problem and began my search.
Here is TechTerm.com’s definition of output. “Output is data generated by a computer. This includes software level calculations (mathematical operations and search results), or at a physical level, like a printed document. Devices such as the printer, monitor and computer speakers are some common output devices. And here’s a simple tech definition for input. “Any data entered into a computer is referred to as input. Input can be something as simple as moving or clicking a mouse button, or as complex as scanning a document, or downloading photos, audio, and video.”
The definitions were straightforward and simple, but the word "data" seemed to play a key role, and I suspected a pivotal one. Merriam-Webster defines data as, “information output by a sensing device that includes useful and irrelevant or redundant information and must be processed to be meaningful." There you have it! The word meaningful is the culprit. Is there a more subjective word? It’s the variable that has to become a part of the calculation. Or not, I’m thinking now. Do I need to calculate all the variable responses to my output? Do I need to dilute the processing of my input in fear of another’s output?
Ideally, I think not. What is more fundamental to an individual than their perspective and how they view the world? It’s their pixel in this mosaic mainframe. For now, I will continue to process what I find to be meaningful. The input or output problem is resolved as long as I remember that meaningful is a variable in the calculation of communication – with others and with ourselves.
Know that I appreciate your input and output, however irrelevant, irreverent, redundant, or meaningful.
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I had a drive-by download happen this week and NOT to my computer. The upload was quickly stashed into a Trojan Horse black Jeep, and off they went. The malware wormed through the neighborhood presenting themselves as honest individuals looking for work. The upload included my computers, jewelry, keepsakes, photos and more. They entered through the backdoor, and interestingly I found this has a tech term counterpart called RAT. How appropriate. Remote Access Trojan (RAT), defined by TechTarget, “is a malicious program (person, in my case) that secretly creates a backdoor (I had one) into an infected system (not until they arrived) that allows threat actors (I guess this is politically correct) to remote access it without altering the user (I was at Costco) or the system’s security programs (which I didn’t have).” The technical definition fits perfectly except the “remote access,” as they were fully present in broad daylight, not cyberspace! Also, TechTarget defines Trojan Horse as “a malicious program that is designed to appear as a legitimate program: once activated, Trojans can execute their malicious functions.” I can attest to that.
It was a harrowing week with police and insurance reports and multitudinous actions to guard identity theft. And then there was the looming effort to secure emotions connected to items that were valuable beyond a dollar amount. I found I had massive amounts of memory stored and storage – the cloud is endless and so is the heart. I realize there are far worse situations and am merely exploring my small puzzle piece of the world.
You may know, too, that my obsession is using the tech world and computer terminology as an overlay for personal exploration. It’s here I began my SELF Search. If I am choosing the software and apps that I want to facilitate and perform my functions in the world, why would I allow (not consciously) a Trojan Horse to infiltrate and enter my domain? Do I have a personal security system? I pay Norton enough to oversee my cyberself. What are my vulnerabilities? What am I downloading as I scan the news and interact in the world? What am I uploading? What do I delete? What’s in my archives? Do I need to defrag data to more clearly define my identity? I simply don’t associate with the idea of being a victim.
Do I write my personal code? With this question, my search became more symbolic. What am I robbing myself of – fulfilling my dreams, aspirations, abilities? I think we often become entangled in the codes others have written with off-ramps for responsibility, excuses, blame, and reasons for derailments. Although many may be well intended, they can act like drive-by downloads (automatically downloaded malicious programs to user’s systems without their knowledge), or phishing attacks (disguised messages with malicious links for unsuspecting users). Broad brushed comments like “the world is hostile” implies a bleak picture, a Trojan Horse, which isn’t on my desktop.
This search doesn’t offer a conclusion or even answers. And yet, the questions themselves seem to expand my sense of self - my identity, and my sense of security.
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I am growing impatient bowing my head in reverence to all things IT and ignoring what I sense is a decline - not in data, but in daring. Can any of you Geek Gods code daring? We need some bold, courageous action. This new tech renaissance/religion/revolution has become a slow read. It’s routine. We get it, we’re programmed (literally). Our phones are appendages, and we all know we’re going to need a new one in less than two years. We know to answer work emails on our personal time, which isn’t anymore. We know to tweet and text and superficially engage. Virtual shopping just makes sense, as do photos of our food and playing video games in virtual worlds. It has even been reported in a recent Precision Medicine Forum article that “Mark Zuckerberg already has an avatar of himself which is able to walk around his virtual home and make things happen in his physical home.” That’s impressive, though not surprising. Mark’s Ark also has a large leak which is a problem he needs to fix, but that’s another topic.
So, what’s my problem? I don’t want an avatar! As you know, an avatar is an icon or figure representing a particular person in a video game, Internet forum, etc. Some refer to it as a personal icon. I don’t need an avatar. I have a cyberself, as I’ve mentioned before (Cyberself - No Syndrome), who has a mind and will of its own. And as far as a representation of me, I would say it’s a free-spirited counterpart, maybe. But even this is beside the point.
I am impatient with the lack of real adventure in the development of technology. Why are we lollygagging around? Let’s go ahead and make the polar shift happen. Instead of moving to a new planet, as suggested by Stephen Hawking, let’s just turn the controls over to AI (Artificial Intelligence, aka, Almighty Internet), including our cyberselves. We wouldn’t have to worry about gun control, too many items in a virtual shopping cart, Putin, NK, three hours of time wasted on useless YouTube videos, energy consumption, comments on articles no one is going to read, or global warming. Everything would be calculated in algorithms that we cannot begin to imagine. Think about it - a world of computed solutions.
It sounds daring and even daunting as all control would be relinquished to AI. Although as I think about it, I sense there is something even more daring, more adventurous – true creativity, not complex calculations set for solutions. A creativity that reaches beyond the idea of solutions, sciences, and fine art – a creativity that wonders about the world and the self and what could be. The same creativity that gave birth to all things IT and AI. And know, there’s not a whiff of sacrilege here, just daring to consider imagination and inspiration – no confines, no coding, no avatars or algorithms.
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.....at least for today. Today, I'm dealing with a pixelated perspective - my own. One with such low resolution it's difficult to make out the whole picture. I've been playing with an idea for a project and realized I was distorting the entire objective by focusing on and enlarging only certain elements. I began to think about this and as usual, used a tech analogy, pixelate, as an overlay to explore further - no blaming my cyberself this time. Here's an explanation of pixelation from Techopedia.com. "Pixelation occurs when pixels are stretched to a point beyond their original size. This, in turn, causes the fuzziness or blurry section in an image. For a good quality image, pixelation must be avoided or minimized. Usage of high-resolution images is a technique used to contain pixelation."
I am absolutely determined to have a good quality finished project. With this in mind, I decided I needed to bring in some more picture elements or pixels to resolve more detail and get a clear megapixel view of my project. Sounded like a good plan. But then, I started thinking about pixelated perspectives in general. Seriously, look at the world around us. It's crazy. And it's hard not to fall into a pixelated perspective.
Surprisingly, I found falling into or blending with another perspective has a tech term counterpart. It's called pixel Interpolation. Howtogeek.com gives this definition, "The color of one pixel is blended into the next adjacent pixel at high levels of zoom." Again, I was determined not to think politics. Instead, as I shifted my thoughts, parenting and other relationships came to mind. We often connect and blend with someone because of their views, or take on another's perspective because of powerful influences, or in this case, "high levels of zoom." Cambridgeincolour.com had an addition to the definition, "Interpolation is an approximation, therefore an image will always lose some quality each time it is performed."
Without a question, I agree with this statement by Cambrigeincolour. Whenever we don't think for ourselves, or don't search ourselves for an authentic idea and simply take on another's perspective, or when we align with others to the point of losing our sense of self, we lose what is most valuable to each of us. We lose our unique position in the world from which no one else can view - our perspective.
Unexpectedly, beyond wandering around in my thoughts, restating tech definitions and ranting, I did come to a resolution. From my view, all pixels and perspectives are needed to avoid the fuzzy, blurred image we sometimes have of ourselves and our world. I hold to this value and to the search for and integration of High Resolution.
Is this an evolutionary process? Is it human error? Is it a godsend – a yet to be understood, immature, undisciplined, descendant of the digital divine? What gives rise to this cyberself? There have to be others searching for an answer. As I mentioned in my last post, my cyberself is indeed running amuck, filling shopping carts, boldly and blindly commenting at every opportunity, and claiming authoritative stances often blurring the lines between cyberspace and my space. One can only ask, does this cyberself have a cypersoul?
If there is a cybersoul, there would at least be some hope. Knowing a moral code has been written on the hard drive of destiny would be a blessing. I could rest from the undertow of urgency pulling at me to rein in this allusive new part of myself that is looped in holy hallucination. And to add to the pressure, if I were truly faithful I would not question what will probably become known as the immaculate emergence of this hallowed hyperlink – the cyberself – the new digital selfhood living in cyberspace – connected to and through the Almighty Internet (AI). Just click, and you’re there, or rather the cyberself is there. There is no judgment day – heaven is only a click away. It sounds simple, but therein lies the double-edged sword, and the story of the infamous Apple (Inc.) and the Tree of Knowledge.
As you may know, my obsession is using the computer culture as an overlay for personal exploration. Here is TechTarget.com’s definition of “cyber.” “Cyber is a prefix used to describe a person, thing, or ideas as part of the computer information age.” Again, it’s simple enough, but think how complex things become when you consider cyberstalking, cybercasts, cyberbullying, cybercafés, cyberterrorism, cyberpunk, cybernation, cyber Monday, not to mention viruses, identity theft, malvertising, and fake news. We need a cybersoul.
Talk about looped, I’m feeling dizzy and overwhelmed just thinking about this Digital New Age (DNA) in which we are living. Obviously, the DNA is not as fully developed in me as in some others. I should be able to reach beyond my rational thinking. What am I questioning? Of course, the Apple programming prophets and seers at Oracle wrote code for a cybersoul. They knew how important control (and currency) and cybersecurity would become. Discipline is merely a part of the divine dilemma. We are indeed blessed. I cease my search. That is, I cease my search for the cybersoul.
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The cyberself is not a syndrome. It is, in fact, a new selfhood and mine is running amuck. I’m not sure why psychologists have not given it a new category of recognition – id, ego, cyberself, superego. Or it could be categorized as a level of consciousness - conscious, cyber-conscious, unconscious, subconscious. Some kind of acknowledgment or identification is needed.
I am not a psychologist, but I’m well aware of my mental and emotional state, and my cyberself is robustly present. Actually, I am not a research analyst, a physician, professional shopper, the Pope, meteorologist, or op-ed journalist either. However, my cyberself stakes claim to each of these professions and more. With total disregard for standard credentials or considerations, it simply Googles the information needed and then proceeds with self-appointed authority. Period.
Although I sense the emergence of the cyberself is a kind of mental evolution, it also feels closely aligned with an inflated ego and is only fueled by free reign in cyberspace. Filling shopping carts, assertively commenting, searching travel adventures, collecting data – all of this in a state of satisfied mounting nonchalance. “Of course, I can do this,” it says to itself. Like in a dream, I appear as a mere observer. My cyberself feels it does not have to deal with time or money or any kind of reasoning – it has access to the Google God, the Archangel Amazon, and Mark’s Ark. What more is there? It’s a cyberself in cyberspace!
As you may know, my obsession is using technology as an overlay for personal exploration. Here is Webopedia’s definition for cyberspace. “Cyberspace is the non-physical terrain created by computer systems. Online systems, for example, create a cyberspace within which people can communicate with one another, do research, or simply window shop (not hardly). Like physical space, cyberspace contains objects (files, mail messages, graphics, etc.) and different modes of transportation and delivery. Unlike real space, though, exploring cyberspace does not require any physical movement other than pressing keys on a keyboard or touchscreen.”
This leads to my definition for cyberself - an emerging ego in cyberspace that senses itself as the primary identity and feels an exhilaration and sense of freedom from physical confines and responsibility.
We should be celebrating this growth in consciousness, however unruly and unreasonable. Many are I feel certain. Look at the growing number of Facebook Faithfuls and tech zealots and temples around every corner. But for me, I feel overwhelmed with this addition to identify. I wonder if the New Age of Net Neutrality will lessen the cyberself and its sense of free reign in this strange New World. I should ask my cyberself, who also claims the powers of prophecy.
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